My world

haix nvr blame anyone b4...just myself...

2007-01-05T20:42:00.000-08:00

wait till the day i said i want to give up i will just go...
i know this year is going to be the year i am going...
going to leave...not becos of anyone..just that i cannot take it myself...
i dun know wat will happend tml...but nvrm...

people always said ming tian hui ge hao,
but to me is ming tian hui ge bu hao...;(

no one can help me, just myself...
feel like taking a break..
-my body fee so hot today...=/

NEW YEAR!

2007-01-01T21:29:00.000-08:00

YES! it's finally NEW YEAR!!!

i was like waiting for this day so damn long la... hahax

cos 2006 is really a very BAD YEAR to me...
so many things had happened through out this year..i dun know wat can i said...
seriously feeling quite miserable through out the year, i can hardly smile, hardly improved something, although i got really a lot of scoldings from pples.
but i hope this year 2007 will let me be happy,even though i already know it's going to be a tiring year..
i dun know whether i can go through it smoothly a not...but not matter wat SWISSWINDS! i promise i won't leave till i passed out..., not that it's bcos of the hard work i hv done, it's going to be all for my seniors..=)
2006 i done many things wrong, 2007 let me make things become better

i must be strong, not tears , i wun allow me myself to cry....
let year to be smooth, not prob... NOTHING!

hope 2007 will be a peace year! the best is WORLD PEACE!=)

in 2007
-i hope the difficulties between me and him will be better, really hope we can be good friend, although i dun see anything will let it go better but this is my only dream i want to be fufilled other than WORLD PEACE!~

New year is coming... hope life will change....

2006-12-31T05:28:00.000-08:00

ytd! go watch night at the musem!!!
oh my god it's really nice la... i can said...lol!!! XD
but i didn't really laugh that lot...
hahax..
nvrm...new year is coming in a few more hours!! YES!! i can wait for a new year!!
cos this year is really a horrible year to me...
hope next year will be much much more better..=/
i want sch reopen!! hahax... maybe i am crazy, but i really missed lesson lots!! hahax...xp

ok guess thats all i hv to said...
i enjoyed my day ytd, guess u guys didnt realised...
although it's still the same way, a same day...but i really enjoy...

dun waste time anymore..i dun want to let u both to hv diffiulties...especially you...not him ,seriously i enjoyed ytd...i cant, and i dun hv the right to ask for more...anymore...sorry :]

chirstmas...

2006-12-26T04:28:00.001-08:00

ytd is CHRISTMAS!!! haix...quite... nth better to do...

this year's christmas felt so empty...

really not happy at all can!!LOL!

haix...

count down for christmas at NIC house hahax.. but not many of them went there..hahax..
quite fun la...but TIRED! LOL!

but i think it's better than nth...

oH YA!! sch going to reopen veri sooN!!i miss lesson so much la..!!

but it's like nvr holiday like that...

almost everyday is BAND!! lol! hven done my hw...much quickly finish everything tml!!! hahax...really hope can finish my hw la...

CLASS 3N1 NEXT YEAR!! still not sure who is in the same class with me...
but for information...i dun think my teacher are good...
lol...anw i must work my ass off... wahahax!
i can said this yr is going to past in few more days! is like so damn fast, i can said...hope thing will go better next year...=)

I must said I MISS MY FRIENDS SO SO MUCH!!! XDD!! CANT WAIT FOR SCH REOPEN!!! xp
HAHAHAX!
i am stopping here...lol...

BYE!
=)

i cant stand anymore..

2006-12-22T21:28:00.000-08:00

i want to die..
i cant survive longer...
my life is limited.. and now it's my limit...
u guys break ur promise...
promise to celebrate my bdea...
promise to do watever things...all nv do, then wat for saying it to me ...

i done so much..i tried so hard to fill u guys life...i just cant let u all feel happy...i am useless indeed...i am not suitable to be in this band...
not suitable to be a part of swisswinds...
i am neither siutable to be a part of u guys as a friend...
i cant let down my feelings...
i cant do my part as a frined...
i cant be fufill to my parent as their daugther... i am really a failure...
all i can to do is to hate u all....

no ones bothers....i can see, u guys are tired of me...
i am too greedy...too selfish...
i dun know why i still care so much about u....
i dun know how i start to love u so deeply last time and now still...
this kind of lost feeling..is what i nv had before in my life...
certainly, i dun know why i am born..
i dun know what's the point of living without you, without someone listening to me anymore....

god! give me an axe! i want to kill myself....;(

no one will ever see this post....again...

dun feel like blogging anymore...

2006-11-28T07:03:00.001-08:00

from this monment i shall stop posting...
i will live in my own world in my heart...
no worries , no care , no idea...

i shall close the finally door of my heart....

Almost everyone left...

2006-11-27T14:21:00.000-08:00

Hais almost everyone are left FOR holidays..=/

So damn sian la...CAN!
but nvrm...

i will MISS them de..hahax

Getting less and less freedom le...Sad lor!!!
now i must reach home by 9 plus..last time can...12 one lor...
but still get scoldings..
i need time...i scared i have no time anymore...
days & days past.... i dun know whether i can survive a not..

PLS! GIVE ME MORE TIME!!! ARGH!!! xs

-i am confused!

can the past replay? so i can live longer...

2006-11-23T05:53:00.001-08:00

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cos life sucks now.....

if i can have too?

2006-11-20T02:12:00.001-08:00

Um..i dun know wat can i said now... being this way is not i want...and not i wish...
i am not gonna said wat's happening,
sorry...for behaving this way... i am just sad that i dun have the'family' u guys have now....

i have before, but it is chose to be' break'...

Not i dun want to go...is i can't... i know i can't.....
i just can't go there...i have no face to go,although we are still friend, dun ask me why, i have said it before, no point saying it again...if u have good memory, u will remember it... sorry...i dun want to said it again..

sorry friends....

no one....

2006-11-15T20:30:00.000-08:00

我好想要离开。。。

Dun feeling living....i understand everything today...
Dun care is the best....

......hiax.....

2006-11-13T13:06:00.000-08:00

issit really the only idea that..............

without the guy u love, u want to die..

why everyone ard me feel the same... all of them want to die..
or
said they are dead...

they make me feel like dieing as well........

back from Korea!

2006-11-10T17:08:00.000-08:00

Heys!! i am back!!!

went to many places of korea!! um...quite fun only....
hahax..cause veri tired...-.- i take 4 times of aeroplane can!!
took many photo!! x))

One thing i must said!! we are veri lucky, we can see two season in one season

we saw SNOW!! and the FENG YE!!! lol...

at changi airport =)

while boarding the plane..

our first breakfast there =DD

us !

After tat we went straight to next airport in korea to Jeju..

at the airport

again =s

went to the green tea thing there after boarding the airport lol...dun know wat tat call...

green tea! hahax.

me n papa =)

more pic in Jeju =)

she seems to like my papa so much hahax... =) feed him HOney some more.. -.-

the mountain pig..lol..

more pic from other places we have went to...

mountains

bear standing 0.0

mix of tiger and lion =DD cool man...

=D

SNOW!!! WHEE!!!

my candy floss =SS

me =DD

our dinner tat day...not the nice...=/

me n papa again..

we and our dao you( the red pink jacket women)

us

me and sis....we are flying?? lol

on plane again...

the other side

me and the apple tree =))

my family =))

apple tree

hahax my er yi look so cute.. lol

me in my room

da yi, ready to go?!!

me and feng ye!!!

we!

again..

isn't it beautiful??

feng ye...

me!!

more!!!!

me and da yi..

da yi and er yi =)

me...

[top left to dwn right] dao you, sis ,soon, mummy and me!

hahax they look cute =))

mummy and papa

us with our ' hats ' on!! except mummy -,-

me....

palace of da chang jin!

da chang jin word..

we in lotte world..

me and soon at last..

our finally pic..

END OF KOREA EXLPORE!!

SIAN!

2006-10-30T10:43:00.000-08:00

Holidays are so damn freaking SIAN!

Argh!! i simply hate holidays la!!
but i like it sometimes....=p
Lol..

Suddenly, don't feel like going overseas =(
but i m going off this thur!!!
fine...and there is band on the tue and wed!!!!!!
=( veri tired leh... nvrm.. i shall practice then....=)

*don't practice the wrong thing, all else u won't know ur mistakes....
still don't wanna give up....i shall continue always... till some days ltr....
i must always remember, i m not the only one that is tired... everyone is tired as well... i must bear this in mind always...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!! =)))

Forgotten

2006-10-28T22:00:00.000-07:00

'Forgotten'
(have u forgotten)
it's a nice lyrics here

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Chorus:]Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ahAh ah ah ah
Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea

[Chorus]I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted I
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah

YEAH!! I DID IT!!

2006-10-27T15:09:00.000-07:00

HOORAY!!! I DID IT! MAN!!! OMG!! 0.0

ART! POA! WHEE~~~``` XDDD

3N1!!!! hahax!

btw, not many of them in my class got into my class..
haix... maybe i will miss 2N2 pple?? but not all bahx... LOL!
anyway my reslut still sucks...but i manage to be in the class i want!! haiya... shirley not in the class with us =( sad la...
but nvrm our class is just next to their's =DD
we can also always go out togehter as wel stilll!!!=DDD
hope can do better next yr!! =D

But, i hate 2N2, all those sad n unhappy memories... i hate my class this year...

*at least this time i nv failed, becos of anything personal things...=)

cant control..

2006-10-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

cant control myself of thinking that u treated like this me that time....

pretended!!! CANT CONTROL!!! my brain! my brain cell!! someone HELP ME TO GET THEM OUT PLS!!! 1 yr is passing!! =(( the time that i hv suffer... from sickness of 'xiang si' =((\

went through alot of happy things this 11 months!!! BUT WHY AM I STILL THINKING OF YOU!! didn't talk more than 10 sentence to u...!!! this sentences is ALL ABOUT WORK!!!

I GOING CRAZY!!! AHHH!!!!!! =((((

really disappoint that they nvr do wat they promised me ='''((
-No more memorable day for this gerl... suddenly i really feel like closing down my blog...

HEYS! CAMP WAS FUN!

2006-10-19T18:25:00.000-07:00

HEYS! CAMP WAS DAMN FUN!!

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Hahax first day of CAMP!
split into 20 grp , i was in group 2!! hahax
YANA! my instructor! so PRETTY! so CUTE! n my student leader XINYI! she was NICE too!! =DD
LOL! same grp with JOCELYN! hahax.. n xiao ting..
um...didn't really know xiao ting well after all. lol! but anw we have FUN!
hope everyone HAVE AS WELL!

we did the high element for the first of camp! HOHO! DAMN FUN! at first quite scared..but after it was OK! =) we manage to do only two of the high element only..
we r conbine in grp 1 , 2, n 3.. the instructor always shout..
instructor: gereda oi!!!
WE: OI~~~
instructor: gereda oi!!
WE: OI~~~
instructor: gereda gereda!
WE: freedom( grp 1 ) , liberty( grp 2 ), peace( grp 3 ) =DD
hahax.. then we went for NIGHT WALK AT NIGHT! WEE~~`` =DD DAMN NICE!! haha , like walking into the forest like tat..hahax.. I ENJOY IT SO MUCH!! XD
but have to wait damn long then can walk out...cos i m in GROUP 2 LIBERTY! HAHA! +DDD
then we had our supper..just bun... haha..it's nice btw..
day 1 ended tis way i guess...lol

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DAY 2 =))

did high element AGAIN! but is different la...
we only can play 2... cannot choose want loh...=((
nvrm... we nid to walk across the rope with a buddy..i walked with jocelyn!
walked 3 times! and then still FAILED! haix. it's my fault cos i keep shaking my legs..SORRY JOCELYN! =SS kinda scared... but i m happy that i TRIED!!=)))

then the next element we did is to climb the dun know wat the thing la...then jump and catch the bar? LOL! not sure wat's that called... failed to catch it...but when u are falling, u will feel veri shiok! hahax.. it's fun anyway =))
then it's the end of the high element..

after tat we did the spider web thingy, the wooden log...the acid land..
AND THE KAYAKING!! OMG!! 0.0 It's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUN MAN!! KAYAKING ROCKS!!! WAHAHAHA!!! LOVES KAYAKING SOOO DAMN MUCH!!! =DDDD anw many of them enjoy it too! LOL!

HAIX! end of day 2 after that, and end of the camp!!
NO CAMP FIRE, SAD LAHX!!! =((( i waited for it soo long loh...in the end CANCELLED!! =((
all becos of the PSI lah..106 only!! it's better than day 1 lor! day 1 is 130 like tat leh... then they nvr said anything wat.. i was like so disappointing.... haix... have to pack until sooo hurry after playing....

after packing we assembled in our usual place... almost all the instructor sang a song to us!!! omg!! so SWEET!! love them soo much...although always got scolding...but they are still the best! =))<<333 cute ="DD">LINGER

Hmmm, i want to linger
Hmmm, a little longer
Hmmm, a little longer here with you

Hmmm, it's such a prefect night
Hmmm, it doesn't seem quite right
Hmmm, that this should be my last with you

Hmmm, and come September
Hmmm, i will remember
Hmmm, our campimg days and friendships true

Hmmm, and as the years go by
Hmmm, I'll think of you and sigh
Hmmm, this is good- night and not good- bye......

the instructor sang us tis song! NICE RITE? the lyrics so touching =(

***the camp ended so sad& happy....

it's not an happy ending after all

2006-10-13T19:05:00.000-07:00

"MY HAPPY ENDING"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let s talk this over
It s not like we re dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don t leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Caught up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things
thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything,
everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You ve got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I m difficult
But so are they
But they don t know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things
I thought
I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]
It s nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like
I was the only one
It s nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done [Chorus x2]

the story = my story...
totally the same.....
i hate tat u pretended...pretendend to love&care me half way through...
i dun like tat at all...u dun desevered my love

-it's not an happy ending after all =(

Exam r finally OVER!! wEE~~`=D

2006-10-11T14:37:00.000-07:00

HEHEX!

EXAM IS FINALLY OVER! =D

can play! can go crazy like watever shit!! can do wat i want!!! can hang out!!!![ but no money]=(......
haix.....

but watever! who cares btw..haha...

FAILED MY LIT!! only passed eng n art... gt 3 papers back today...and then only passed this two sub..=( haix..nvrm...hope i can gt to passed for my overall well and get into class 3n1!!! lol...
anw i know wat i will passed and wat i will failed, cos everytime passed and failed is the same subjects.. eng maths chinese dnt art lit will all passed for my overall...then geo n sci..um just forget it then..=/ GEO N ART! i want take this two subject!! tis is my 1st choice btw , 2nd GEO N D &T, 3rd HIS N ART, 4th HIS N D&T, 5th HIS N F&N i simply hate F&N!! but i loves COOKING!! WEE~~~`!! =)) as long as i can cooked a meal 4 my family i will be VERY HAPPY =)) cos it is done by myself =DD, anw i did it b4...lol... haiya...almost all my friends take different subjects with me loh...all take F&N...haix...they dun wan ART how to do?? cant force them or myself to take the subject they want and i want rite?? =) nvrm i respect their choice bahx... it's all gonna be a life of ART.. i am metally prepared =) No regrets , No U-turns anymore..i have submited my choice.. all i hv to do is to just accept it...

No matter is 3N1 or 3N2... it will still be my class, the only class i can be for the next 3 years in swiss... icantakeit....

-i miss my seniors =(

FLOOD!

2006-10-06T22:20:00.000-07:00

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NONAME AGAIN!

2006-10-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

I HATE PPLE NOT PUTTING THEIR NAMES ON MY TAG BOARD!!!

i must said to all the 'NO NAMES' , u all gt NAME better put!

thnx!!but he nv send me any msg feel so...

2006-10-05T16:41:00.000-07:00

THNX!!!!!!!!!

thnx!!! Eleanor and Joan!!! thnx accompanying me!
xDD

LOVES!!! XD
lol!

this are all the present i hv today!

THNX SO SO MUCH! TO: SHERMAIN FANGYU SHIRLEY KERONG ELEANOR JOAN MADDELINE DEBBIE YEKAI KAU JIE ALLOY WEITING!!

sad tat he nv msg me... but it's ok... maybe he forget?? hahax... i know lying to myself...
[answer is : he forgot...]but i know he likes the present that i chose for his birthday this year......the puma bag... ;'((

knowing tat i m sad...i didn't want to affect anyone..today ;__(

but i really <<3 lot =")

ye xu wo ming day xiao bah. . . . .

the post

2006-10-02T11:38:00.000-07:00

first post of october..

2.10.06

next month today, i will not be in singapore...i m in Korean..

2.11.06

my first time boarding the plane...

times flies like nobody business can!!

-.-

sec 2 camp!! shld be fun bahx.. hahax... yup=D

gd luck to everybody!! take cares!! EVERYBODY WILL DO FOR EOY EXAM!!! +DDD

sign off~~`

i tried not to think bout him during exam...

-i dun think i can jump to express...

3 more days..

2006-09-26T22:28:00.000-07:00

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will i be happy? after??

='((

i want myself back...='((

I just want u guys... u all...

2006-09-22T19:27:00.000-07:00

I dun nid anything.... i just wan you guys....
I dun want anything as well.... i just wan a really memorable wan....=)
I just wan to hv my happiness back.... :'(

I really nid u...but i dun dare to "ask for it".... :___((

Tears everywhere...drops of tears in the ground..
i will stick with my memories for sure...

i sucks 2006...

canidoit?? i can??

2006-09-19T20:19:00.000-07:00

Days will be miserable and hard for me...

canitakeit??

canidoit??

can i???

i need u guys...
do i deserve it??

Exams coming...veri soon...CCA resuming soon.... tis yr is passing veri soon...1 yr hv gone so fast..
but the 8 months ago is the most precious...
frenz always rocks..
i can't forgt...simply can't...
it seems like we just started ytd...

All by myself...i dun wanna live all by myself....='((

wo ai de yao si...

2006-09-06T14:36:00.000-07:00

wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo
wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo
wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo
wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo

si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si
si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si
si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si si

le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le
le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le
le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le
le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le le

dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou
dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou
dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou dou

zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi
zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi
zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi
zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi zi

ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai
ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai
ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai ai

ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni
ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni
ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni
ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni ni

wo ai de tai nan, tai xing gu ...

i gonna leave soon..

2006-09-03T18:04:00.000-07:00

i m getting older soon...
hahax.....
Gonna leave OR stay is my choice rite??
hope not...

i gonna leave soon..

2006-09-03T03:08:00.000-07:00

i hv to rest tis time...

2006-08-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Walau...i sucks la...=(((
i hate my attiude...
i hate everything bout myself..
i hate i m not gd enough..

it's really veri tired for me to go through the same thing over n over again..
tis time...i really nid to catch a breath.. i nid to rest...
let me rest for 1 second, 1 min, 1 hour, 10 hour 1 day...
i have to take a break tis...time...just tis time...
i feel like shouting out loud now...
throw away all my sad feeling...
but...i try shouting in the lift...but no use.......
nvrm i shall do more..

sorry...i hv to rest... i m really damn tired...=((
having some metal problem..agree? hahax..

what can i do???

2006-08-21T16:58:00.000-07:00

wat can i do??

it's so damn pissed off...
hey..i really hate to hv friendship problems loh..
wat i can only said tat she SUCKS la!

days for me becoming longer and more tiring...
love?
hate? or just 4gt it??
haha... how i dun know...
life is so meaningless...
pple just cant gt wat they really wants...
it's so suck hell can!!!
argh... how i wish i can just die?

today saw HIM in sch...feel really damn sadding ='( my heart is always not in shape 4 7 months...
loving a person is so hurt...so sad...when ithe person dun bother u, dun even talk to u directly...
issit really tat when pple break up they wun talk to each other? is tat really happening in every single pair of couples??:S
so confused huh?
haha...

ok those 'problems' i m facing now-
hahax... wat a joke tat i m actually posting it...
CAUSE i M just ENOUGH of it can!!!! hahax!!

hahax....dun think my junior's sound are great?? fantasic??
Do u think i m a great senior??? hahax!
Do u think i hate him???( i wonder...)
Do u think i love him so much tat i can dun care of everything???
dun u think my results sucks??
Do think 2n2 is COOL?
do think SHE rocks??(um... i not saying S.H.E.hahax)
do u think my class tat guy really treat me well?
do i really feel great when i m hanging out with my friends??
M i innocent??
do i hv depression?
m i crazy??
i hate her??
I over crazy tat i m always thinking i m super FAT?!
do i really love my frineds?
do i really love my seniors??
do i really hate my sis??
do i love my parents?
i love trombone most than other imstrument??
overall m i asking stupid question??

hahax i answer are....NO/YES

No!
NO!
NO!!!!
Yes!!!!!!!
Yes!
Not at all can!!!
NO!!! no! NO!!!!
Yes =) thnx!
YES!!! <<33
NO! pls loh...
Yes!! somehow i m a bit...
YES!! totally!!!
YES!!! obviously...
YES!!!! YES!!!
OF COS!!!! I LOVE la!!
Omg!! they r simply great!!
NO!!! not at all actaully...
OF COS!
YUP!!! =DD
Ya i m seriously asking stupid qns, but its truth ok! hahax =))

tis post shall be a really crapping one... at least it's from my heart..=)

*how do i live without u.... i love u....sui rian ke yi mei tian kan dou ni...ke shi wo tian tian ye ye dou zhai xiang ni...='( wo mei tian zhai xin li nan gou....you xue de lei...=__(( drops oftears with blood...blood dripping from my heart as well....

wat??

2006-08-09T16:40:00.000-07:00

haix my com spoil le!
cant used... i m now at wt house! hahax!

i have to restart my com i guess....haix....damn pissed off can!
missed everything so much...
ok i shall said i missed HIM! the most...
nvr forgt him since the day...=((( n how btw....

i cant do anything now but to wait....
i dun want anything that is selfish....
i just hope it will find....=(...

it's always like tat...

2006-07-30T20:00:00.000-07:00

All of the sudden...i dun feel rite....

i 4gt where m i... i feel veri veri veri lost....
seriously...if u guys r stress wat m i... i always get scoldings...at a wrong time..
i m always i unfair one.... i m always the one tat hv to face pple tat is not stress at all n show tat their stress...
they really dun know how fortune they r....they are not mature enough loh...
U see no one think at all...no one think about wat i m saying....
i simply...feel damn pissed off lah...

-since i hv decided....i hv to force myself not to hv any regret in my mind...=((( even no one understand my heart...
i m just too 'GONG'!!! too 'BLURR'...all i can said...i m simply not strong enough!!! =(

hehex today!! thnx!!

2006-07-29T23:57:00.000-07:00

YOYO!! today after band go celebrate derry's b'dea...
WITH! dwaen DERRY! eleanor julia jocelyn joan yipping jiong han edwin kenneth natassia edwin jacob jeremy brent n zhenggshu
um...hope he like it...cos we dun really know where to go today lol....

At first we go orchard n eat pasta!!!! X)
hahax NICE!! i love my blackcurrent soda!! n my spicy chicken pasta!! hehe...
taste not bad worx...
then after tat we went arcade n play! natn edwin was caugh, n hv to gt out of he arcade....if not they hv to change their clothes...we stayed quite long there actually hahax..although i didn't play much at all...but it's still ok with me lar...

then WE WENT to ESPLANDE!! HOHO!!

see!!!! i took tis with my hp...so blur -.-

three of us!

hehex we!!!! some of them left half way =(
but we still hv fun taking pic at the roof terence!! =DD

and one more thing is! i bought 3 veri veri expensive pieces of chocolate!!!
total price is $5.30!! 0.0 hahax but it was nice larx...veri long nv eat le....so i bought it => then we go marina square there to hv dinner!! i ate porrigde lor...almost vomit.... porrigde simply sucks when u eat too mch of it although i only hv half bowl of it..
hahax...
then me n kenneth n jionghan left.... oh ya!!! big nic just came n find us when we three are leaving..lol..

anw today is FUN!!!! everybody SIMLE!!! N SAY CHEESE !!!=DDD

thanx u guys!!!!
hahax...
N HAPPY BE-EARLY B'DEA TO DERRY!!!!!

i love swisswinds
i love u guys to bits
i love my friends n seniors!!!!!
U all ROCKS!!! <<<3333!!!>

- i m not sad today....but i dun feel rite...=( silly me..... is it cos of him again...cos he nv come along with us i guess =((

Wat happened to everyone?

2006-07-22T16:12:00.000-07:00

Wat happened??? can sumone tell me??
everyone seems so moody , so strange , so not themselves....
did i do sumthing wrong??? did i make u guys unhappy?? i dun know....
but just hope everything will become better once again...

SMILE EVERYBDOY!!! No point being sad....if u want to say anything just say!!! dun worry..
No one can ever fail...without trying...=)

i m serious....

-bye to>>> yy (i m just saying goodbye..lol....)

ok LAKESIDE PARK just ROX!!

2006-07-15T11:48:00.000-07:00

Okok...i hv to said...LAKESIDE SIMPLY ROX CAN!!!!
hahax~~`` shld hv go there at the veri veri FIRST PLACE!!!
XD
it's my first time climbing the red colour thingy..heyx..dun know wat is tat larr...Hahax..
Then played the swing over there, the turning thing, n we was like climbing the whole day...hehex...damn FUN ok!!
Dawen Zhengshu Eleanor Julia Yipping Chingkit Derry.
U guys Simply rox lar ok!!xDDD wahahahax..<<33

Heyx...dawen let me think of him...again.....
Um...Nvrm la..it's ok..today's fun anyway =DD

Argh... damn tired sia...

2006-07-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

Hahax!!!

today...

um...nothing much happened...hahax....today's ET damn tiring... i was like half die during reading lesson can!!hahax..LOL!!! went out wif FANGYU! after sch today!! hehex...um...we went lot 1 to buy her mummy's b'dea present xDD hahax..which is tml! hehex my mummy's birthday is cuming SOON too!! 31 july =)) same as DERRY!! 0.0 =DDD Yeah!! can buy many present 4
tis month!! wahaha!!! i simply enjoy buying present! but, only when u know wat u want buy...

haiyo...today in class....it's so dots...they...just want to put me N kj together ok....i just simply dun like their way...they r like soo helping him...i dun like can... i like a bit bu shaung ok!!! i m just sick! of telling them i dun like i dun like i just dun like kj!! He like me like already 1 yr...n then we dun even talk to each other much...n i really dun know how he like me wan....-.- is like so unfair to me!! told them tat AI QING SHI BU NENG MIAN QIANG DE!!! they just DUN CARE!! i gt experience b4...i failed b4...i dun wan to hurt kj! although i didnt hurt him...but i will feel guilty wat....rite? but wat i m giving kj now is just a chance to let him know more a bout me! if he cant passed...sorry...if he pass also sorry...cos i dun think i will like him.... n i dun wish say anything bout relationship between bf n gf... NOW! i want to concentrate on my studies n band... btw....
i haven forget him....my 6 months ago....the reason why i dun want...plus i dun like kj....i know it's already time to give up...it's simply more than the time to give up...but i still didnt...tis doesn't mean tat i wan to patch...is just tat i still love him...just like b4...nvr changed b4...
i dun beg 4 chances...just tat i cant 4gt him....really damn hard... i can tell....6 months!!! already!!! sumtimes i really must be forgetful...but i m not forgetful at the correct time!!
haix... now is..as long as i can like him....it doesen't matter he cares bout me a not....many of them said this...: Hey! u shlden't hv come to siwss cottage wan....here brought u soo many sad memorise...making ur life more n more miserable...if u didn't come i guess life will b much more easier...but i repied...: No! if tat case i wun know such good friends in tis Sch! although i failed in my relationship...he dun really bothers me...but at least i know u guys...such gd classmates, CCA mates n my trombone section!! my so so so GREAT SENIORS!!! my FRIENDS!!! i nvr regret...seems i m already here..i hv done so far...i think i shld'nt give up... rite?! =DD

Ya.... i just feel tired at times... silly gerl..learn to wipe up her tears by her own....learning to be strong! =))

Hey =D

2006-07-12T17:50:00.000-07:00

hey....Soo sian nowadays... =((
i NID to said sumthing!! wahahaha!! i m hving 5 pieces of chips MORE 4 2 DAYS!!

tats all was left... =((
Hehex!! it's LIMITED EIDITION OK!!! XDDD
cost $1.60!
hahax...can save $$$
hehe...

Nvrm...actually i m quite SICK of biscuits...!!! Hahax..i hv been eating just biscuits from morning to night this few days...i mean just my breakfast n lunch!
=DDD but i hv a gd meal 4 DINNER!

okok...i quite siianz lar.... hahax...

* i forgotten wat hw i hv..i forgot wat i nid to do...aiya i just dun rmb everything only ONE!!
my PERCIOUS MEMORISE =)))

No matteri just wun forgt it..n cant..it's too difficult le...=/
1 month has past.. nothing happens..=((

Hey...life simply sucks...

2006-07-10T15:40:00.000-07:00

Wat a meaningless day...
Firstly...

today assembly....sooo lame..-.-
Lesson in class was boring...nearly fall aslept can!!
ET....um.... Ok lar...noty as rock as b4..hahax..
i m broke le k...
i nid $$$
gt some complains from SLs today...they dun know wat my msg is talking bout...haiix...Sorry bout tat =( i hope can try to do better lar...
My condition today...Is BLURR!!! same as ytd..
Hv ART homework to do...
My hair sucks!!!
My hair is turning to brown!! =.=

Overall i wanna said... life is sucky....when I m blurr...

There is BAND tml!!! Hope everything will go on FINE!! hehex =))

I hate GREENRIGDE HAIR DRESSER!!

2006-07-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!! it was such an IRRITATING DAY!! agrh!!
I shall said tat...i hate GREENRIGDE SHOPPING CENTRE SERIOUSLY!!!
I MEAN THE HAIRDRESSER THERE!!!
THEY NO BRAINS SERIOUSLY...HOW CAN THEY TALK TO A CUSTOMER LIKE TAT!!!!
SAYING THE CUSTOMER IS FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

N... THE CUSTOMER IS ME!! i know i seriously FAT! BUT! HOW CAN THEY OFFENCE THEIR CUSTOMER...
somemore TWO BRAINLESS WOMEN RUN ONE BIG ROUND N SHOOT ME TOGETHER AT THE SAME....
is like soo irritating huh?!

when i m leaving there just now...
they forced me to let them see my ez-link lohx... as i was taking my money from my wallet mahx...
N i still nv said anything....
haiix.... is veri veri veri gd tat i nv slap them already ok...

WAH PIANG!!!....IDIOTIC MAN!!!
SHLD'NT HV WENT THERE TODAY LORX....
ARGH....wasting my daddy's precious $10...

-Sorry......****it's my wrong choice again....=(

i dun understand y...

2006-07-08T23:09:00.000-07:00

Is always like....y always the same old thing happening....
again n again......tis is all not movie, not drama....it cant be happeninbg again n again always...
it's real n history...wun start all over again...or neither happen again...
BELIEVE TAT YY SERIOUSLY HV A WRONG CHOICE TIS TIME.....

having so many regrets in my mind....wat shld i do???
i shall face it....being strong....dun cry anymore....
silly gerl....=_)***

SYFOC!!! trombonist jia yous!!!

2006-07-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

Hey...
sat SYFOC~~~``

ya... SWISSWINDS DID ROCKS!
trombonist..!!!

haix...jas is not in the pix =(
Hehex..shall take one more the next...must hv everybody inside...=DDD

um...i didn't manage to make u happy n less worry...tat day... sorry.....i will continue my learning journey...continue till i leave...trombone really rocks...everything u taught me i shall rmb...tis is not all about promise...tis is all about whether i hv the heart to learn..or pick up the instrument well...
i shoulden't disappoint anyone...guess wat..my heart tells me...i love trombone the most....n trombone is the best...at the same i believe i will success...=))***
just one thing i hv no confidence is...i still cant forget him..i hv no confidence in whether i can forget him a not....i may leave my favourite post one day, n join a new post one next day tat i dun like at all...i will really feel hearkbroken.... more n more things coming up...i hate all tis things... it only make me....cant smile....

***endless sad stories***

today!! syf!!!=))

2006-06-29T18:34:00.000-07:00

http://betterlife4me.blogspot.com/Yeah...went wif shir...fangyu after sch today...
took some neoprints!!
hahax... share wif u guys now!!!

hahax shir pose...so funny..wahaha!!!!

hehex <<33 src="http://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y204/mirabelle123400/syf5.jpg">
S.Y.F~~~``=))

toot la...tis photo...lol....attiude too...

i <<3 src="http://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y204/mirabelle123400/syf1.jpg">
PIGGY fy..wahaha!! cute la...

i realised tis photos...while i m finding them....looking clearly at the photos...my pose was almost
the same...

hey..i m fun today.. hahax...thnx S.F!!!=))

is gonna ends...but not now...

2006-06-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

haix.....time flies dun u think so?
i tell u sumore story by me?
interested? lol

A person....her name is blurry....? hahax...she hv no confidence in herself.... she is only 20goin to 25 tis yr...she hv fail in a relationship b4....but she still love that guy deeply...sumtimes she feels like hating him...but she still love him...and nv change b4..they hv break up for ard 5 months already..but bluuryy..still cant 4gt him...she just cant stop thinking bout him...btw that guy already...dun like blurry b4 they break up... at first he dun wanna break cos... he scared bluurry will be sad...n he dun wan blurry...to be sad bcos of him...so at first he dun wanna break up with blurry..but blurry...knows tat all he was giving is not love...is just pity blurry...so...blurry
decided to break...at that time..blurry..nvr think of whether she will be sad a not...she just feel tis in her heart: ' why must i continue a relationship tat hv no love?? why why why???!!..i rather break up than continue...' from tat day onwards...bluury...feel veri veri down...she cant do things properly...but she nv regrets in her desicions!! cos she knows tat she, herself is doing a rite thing n not wrong at all.... one of her senior call her up n ask whether she is ok? bluuryy..feels great...cos at least her frenz still cares bout her...
But...blurry...was like still doing many things for him...n she nv stop doing so even if she knows he dun like her...the worst thing is...blurry n him nv talk bout more than 20 sentence in 5 months...tis makes blurry ver veri veri veri upset...cos she had lost a person, a guy tat is once her great buddy, her best friend..., a person tat used to always take gd care of blurryy....tis makes blurry's mood always veri veri down....
almost all her frenz said tat she 's silly...but her frenz r veri caring as well.....blurry <<33>>>>weiting derry eleanor julia joan big nic dawen kailling madeline...n more!!.u guys really help me...thnx so much...i thnx u all for listening to me....n....i m really veri veri veri blurr.....x)) but...i cant help it... i still like him.........
<<33x))) thnx='))
touched of tears...tat i nv had a chance to really thnx u guys ='__))

i hv my frenz my story my pix...all my memorise..i still rmb...i didnt lost a single one...it's all insied my mind... realli....i had u guys.....i think n i guess i m blessed enough....=') can u feel my heart....there 's still blood all over.......i wonder..i hope...i m rite tis.....

i m not as blessed as others....but i know i m blessed enough to survive=)

-YY sturborn gerl....

Hey i m bored ok!!

2006-06-21T17:20:00.000-07:00

Hey i m boring at home....haish..
So...i decided to start my zilian-ing
Haha..tix r the photos i took =DDD

Hahax i making a compare!! I look like a boy when i was just a baby...lol!!

OMG!! i m smiling to myself -.-"" kuku me.... i m too damn boring...can c huh?
Wahahaha!!!

i m sooo boring tat i wrote tis...=x i didn't said it...i wrote it....sorry...

JOAN N KAILING!!! tis pix took b4 holiday!! so long le...hahax...they rox lar..<<33

mi n FANGYU!! took tis pic at sentosa...i m BLACK!! hahax i enjoy being black!!!wee~~``

XIAOJUN!!! took tis pix in sec 1...hey i m wearing wt's sun glasses...cool rite?!! hehex

HAPPIE BRITHDAY TO JOEY!!!! hahax..my cute cute niece? if i m wrong...dun really know wat tat calls...um..happie 3rd birthday? lol...i not how old is she tis year...hehex...
i always thinks of u when i m bored....or nothing to do...
i will always....think alot...tis makes me love u more deeply...
wat m i suppose to do?? =((

another meaning lyrics by Aaron Carter

2006-06-19T21:35:00.000-07:00

Meaningful lyrics!
there goes comes one more!! dun really wanna said the name of the singer.....
just wan to share wif u guys!
<<33 the song lotsa=)

Do you remember?

ohhhohhhh yeah
ooooh oohohh

remember we'd be up all night
talking 'til the morning light, yeah
like the way it used to be
those simple days just you and me,
mmmm i think baby i know
what's on your mind
cuz you look like you've got something to say
i may not say those words anymore
but maybe it just ain't my way
you ask me do i love you
but do you remember
why i walked on water for you
do you remember
my first steps on the moon
have you ever wondered why
i gave three wishes to you
you asked the question
but the answer lies in you, in you
the answer lies in you

remember we used to laugh
and say no one else could get in our way
and there were times when
you would cry and came knocking
on my door and i was there to shelter your pain
i think baby you should get that off
your mind make it seem like a brighter day
i may not say those words anymore
but maybe i can make it my way
the answer girl lies within
your heart take a look inside

Didnt pple realised?

2006-06-16T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hey...
i m extra in the entire sec 2...i m the only..
normal(AC) for the whole sec 2 swisswinds bage tis...
year...i broke the history record?
Didn't i? The others r all express...i feel so extra....=)
I m realli the only person tat is alone....

lost!

2006-06-14T22:58:00.000-07:00

My world [dashboard]!!! shall i destory???
imanidiot=) lol.......

i wanna ask...

2006-06-13T22:29:00.000-07:00

today....hahax...damn stupiid larx me...
my stomach suddenly feeling veri unwell....haixx..
btw i wanna ask...
My friends......do u hate me???
i shldnt wan to ps u....
i cannot...

n i wanna ask...do u guys dun like me ?
i really feel empty...
it's not backstab, not complaining...
i really feel as empty as b4....tat feeling was like coming soon....
it's sucks..

sorry...i dun know who r my friends now....i m really veri veri veri veri confused..
i cant make up my mind....
from the day i lost him.....i lost everything....
the trust...the friends....the me....
i lose it....seriously lose it...all by myself....

if u wan.....friends...i allows....u to hate...to dun like me...i deserve it...

happie b'dea to u=)

2006-06-12T20:38:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Happie b'dea to him
......................................................................................................................

tml jia yous le!

plz kill me...

2006-06-08T19:40:00.000-07:00

Can Anyone kill me? plz...
i Beg someone...juz..kill me.....
b4 anyhting happens...=((

posting my BLOODY results time!

2006-06-01T15:55:00.000-07:00

ah~ bored to death...
shall post tis...
tis r my BLOODY RESULTS!
Eng: 51.7/100...sucks...but at least i improved?
chi: 68/100...my marks drop alots!
maths: 52.9/100 ..ok at least i pass....but sad to saty..i m demote to band 2...n not band 1 le..
Science: 30.6/100...tis is the worst of all...
His: 43.1/100 um..better thanwat i hv though..
Lit: 69.4/100....i shall pass tis...LOL!
Home Economics: 49.1/100 haix...how can i fail tis sia...
Art: 71/100 the best of all!
Total: 435/800
Percentage: 54.5
Class position: 21/46
Results: Passed..

My Attendance is perfect!? but i rmb i absent 4 one day! lol..but who cares..
Conduct: Very Good!

i hv Improved lotsa!
But i shall work harder! Although i m the only Normal Academic Sec 2 in Band!
i shall b the best one then! =DDD LOL!

Bloody pissed off lor! Sucks retainer!

2006-06-01T15:07:00.000-07:00

eee....bloody retainer!!~~~
affecting me...cant speak properly...
nvrm....i nid it to play my trombone...=))
aiya...yy hates RETAINER lar!
so damn uncomfortable...=((
BLOODY PISSED OFF!!!!
i was like diao-ing the dentist just now...hahahax..no la no la jkjk=]

BUT! Yeah!!! i finally can play my TROMBONE!!!
WEE~~~~~``` no more boring BAND PRACT!!!!
hoho!!!

Still hv 21 DAYS!!! =(

heartbroken...i m a heartbreaker...

2006-05-30T19:30:00.000-07:00

there is sumthing...
the distance seems longer between us...my seniors...or maybe my friend..
haix....i cant make the hole back to it normal shape...
there will scar...=((
WAH~~`` I dun want tis 'LOVE' to Ever END!!!
=(((
Maybe i didn't know
How to show it?
And maybe i didn't
What to said?!
HAHA! my senior....
is all my fault....cant blame anyone...n cannot blame anyone at the same time...i shall leave 1 day...maybe she will come back..if i go she will come...cos i realised the reason today...
i shall really leave tis place one day...cos i m UESLESS!! i know she try her best...n i didint...
really i must go...le...it's time...They dun like me! i give up...i tried....but...i will bear my frenz...
so swisswinds...maybe i shall ....if not trombone sect will die....
as for Qms i dun wanna said anything...i dun belong there.....is like i m not transparent...
y?! i m also a person tat can help out!! Y! i m not a one issit?!
totally heartbroken n sad lar!

nothing els bahx......overall...i leave everything will be alright....issit?
=___(((
they don nid me as an Ass qm

tis lyrics is 4 u

2006-05-28T19:45:00.000-07:00

tis lyrics is 4 u
'If u come back'

C'mon c'mon
Yeah
Can you feel me?
(Baby can you feel me?)
I've got something to say
Check it out
For all this time
I've been lovin' you girl
Oh yes
I have
And ever since the day
You left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh, the reason why
So if I did
Something wrong
Please tell me I wanna understand
'Cause I don't want
This love to ever end

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my life Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to meCome back to meHere's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby You're the one
I want(Come back to meCome back to meHere's my life)
Oh yes you are
I watched you go
You've taken
My heart with you
Oh yes you did
Every time
I tried to reach you
On the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home
So if I did something wrong
Please tell meI wanna understand
'Cause I don't wantThis love to ever endNo, no, no, no

I swearIf you come back
Here's my life Baby, till the end of time
(Come back to meCome back to meHere's my life)
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby You're the one I want
(Come back to meCome back to me Here's my life)
Oh yes you are
Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybeI didn't know
What to say
This timeI won't, this time
Then we canBuild our lives
Then we can Be as one

I swear
If you come back
Here's my lifeBaby, till the end of time
(Come back to meCome back to meHere's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swearI'll keep you right
By my side
'Cause baby You're the one I want
(Come back to meCome back to me)
Oh yes you are

And I swear
If you come back
Here's my lifeBaby, till the end of time
(Come back to meCome back to meHere's my life)
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right
By my side

wadd the...damn pissed lar...

2006-05-25T18:52:00.000-07:00

WALAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SADDED!!!!!!!!!!!
i m sOOOOOOOOOOOO excited...INthe end?!!!!
my BRACES is NOT FULLY REMOVED!!!!
WAH~~~````!!! only the upper only...
AH~~~~``` SAD!!! saD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SADDED!!!!
=((((
HAIX!!!! I NID TO WAITING AGAIN!!! 27 day more days ah!! wad the...
AH~~~~````!!!!!!! =X
feel LIKE SHOUTING LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All i wish always nv come true in time...
Y like tat!!! =(
my lower braces is still wif me...damn pissed off...dun wanna tok le!!!! AH!!!!!!!!
everytime....like de,....i must wait veri LONG! y i m always the one!!!!!!!!!!
QI SI WO LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pissed off....

yeah yy done a gd job=)

2006-05-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

hoho~`` can U believe i actually said WALAU to HIM today!!!
HAHA!! tis is my 1st time shouting tis word to him...=)
Nah..yy is not proud here ok?! although i sound so...
but i m still so called 'happie'anw, i m not tat happie k...
lol... i m crapping here sia...lol!!!
seriously...xing gu ni le... xing gu le...
facing tis kind of person...which is ME!
i hate u lar..=)
LOL....not is opposite..???
ya...obviously it is =DDD
i m....just...hving sumthing inside my mind...
hahahaha!!!!
jiu shi ni zhi de wo ai...zhi de wo qu dai wo de xin+DD
really damn pissed off to myself...cos i m sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
SILLY!!! S-I-L-L-Y!!!!!!!! SILLY!!!!
argh...bai chi woa... HAIYA!!! IM sleepy le la...lol
AHHH!!! i m CRAZY!!!

tata~~~``` sweet dreams pple....gonna sleep le woa!!! =DDD

how about us?

2006-05-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

ok...today tricia came back to sch...
i m thinking tat...she come back to class is a gd thing or a bad thing?
i wonder at times...hmm...
aiya it's complicate to think so much all over again,
-firstly i shall said i dun know who is she
-secondly i dun know whether she is my classmates a not?
-thirdly i can forget but i cannot forgive...strange huh?
-fourthly i know i cannot hate her...
-over all i know she dun wan to b like tat wan...

today i m sleeping n slacking in class like hell!!! LOL!...
there is no teacher coming into the classroom.. wee~~~~``
hahax..
but classroom damn noisy sia..
btw today Mr Gan lesson..we were cleaning our tables in class...cos we actually mess up our table -.-''
wahaahahaha!! tis wat 2N2 always do!!
=p
ok...quite fun cleaning our tables!! it's better than hving lesson i guess..hehehex..=DD

then..when home straight after sch!! hahax i so guai woa..=)
mummy n jie was shock!!! LOL!
cos normally i reach home in the evening or the nite =))..hahax..just from tis yr onwards...from
januray...after the end...hehex...
dad n mum was always the one tat worries me most...
sorry=( i just dun feel like going home..
cos...i...dun hv the feeling of 'home' in my house , my family..
as my parent always reach home ard 8++...or even 11++ 4 dad..
hahax..sumtimes i purposely go late..cos...i dun wan to go...and face a house without my mum n dad..
it's quite sad...they always turn up late..=(
dun really hv gatherings wif them..
esp. my father... he work so hard sia..<<33>

all bcos of me... tats y i cant smile as much as b4...i shall listen to them at the veri veri first...
no point feeling regret i guess..quite stupid huh??
LOL!!
yup 2 more days!!! my braces gonna leave me...soon..i will miss my braces veri veri much..
i mean miss those days wif my braces...=)

gonna love u 4ever....no matter where i go...wat i m talking...our memorise always make me thinks of u... maybe it's not really a 'broken memory'

miss&<<33>

y! Y!!!!!!

2006-05-20T22:54:00.000-07:00

HAix....y !? Y!?
Y?!!!! wanna change!!! =(((
i dun wan....pls dun...i can't imagine wat i will become when tis happen.....

seriously i swear! if u come back....i pr0mise everyhing will be alrite...
but...u wun come back anymore rite?
i dun wanna see the kind of saddy moody u again...

if u come back into my life..i will stay alive...
but i dun wan u to come back...
all tis is just 'if' ...
if u come seriously come back...then sumthing must b wrong...

pissed off...nothing...i shall disappear from my world bah..=)

haiz...didn't expect

2006-05-19T20:26:00.000-07:00

-.-''' haix...Y almost everyone look so moody today =(
sadded...only pass 4 sub...maybe...eng will pass?
wahaha!!!but i didn't expect he didn't do it... i thought he will do better when we ended up our relationship.... sorry i was wrong...
hoho...silly me..wat m i think...he is not doing tis cos of me?! LOL!!!
hahax...if it is real...how gd will it be...=(
at least i know tat i m not the only one tat is......
haix..nvrm la.. it's over...but y sumtime i m still thinking of it?
hahax...

i m thinking of him....if i m not..i believe i can gt a bit better =)

today sect...thanx her! thanx! thanx 4 being in trombone sect! i will worker harder!!!
i know tat u r not tat diff to communicate anymore... it's easy =))
n i didn't hate u b4... seriously!!!! =DDD i know it's 4 our own gd...i will work harder..promise?

everybody jia you!!! if ur result is bad...work harder!!!! jia you!!!
JIA YOU!!!! WOOO!!!!! Hahahaha!!!!
dun feel stress k? gt yy ngo!!! NO BODY SHALL B SAD IN MY WORLD LAR!!!!
WAHAHAHA!!!!!!

nothing to said...

2006-05-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

haiz....=(
I have nothing to said...
juzleavemealone=((

i lost almost everything....my relatioship my world, my life n my spirit...
where i belong? obviously not in tis world...
a world of route tat was chosen by me...=(((

i m so glad i didn't cried...tis tells me tat...i m not tat weak anymore=)
trust myself...i can...i really can=)

i m vomiting now...sorry....not feeling as gd...
seriously im vomiting inside my mouth...just dun wanna throw out...=((
feeling bad @.....
band tml...jia you=)

eee...

2006-05-17T18:18:00.000-07:00

eee..!! my results sucks to hell man..
5 papers was given back today!!
n...i ONLY pass 3!! how darn m3 lor!!
argh...i pass chi, maths n art -.-'''
LOL!!! my art was 71 4 overall!!! the best can gt i guess..
my maths...haiix...just pass...only...52!!! damn me sia..
chi~~`` aiya tat irritate me most lor...the marks like keep dropping like hell...
cant aim 4 express chi le la....ony 66!!! ah~~~`` last time still gt 70 plus wan lor...

chao lau shi was disappointed wif me..hiax...tis is not wat i wan i guess...
i feel veri sad lor...see my result all so... ALL I can said was HAIX!!

so regret so sad..can't smile anymore..sory...i cant
my brain stop functioning...too many things in my brain...
he occupied the most...HAHA!!! feel like
SHOUTING TO HELL !!! SCEARMING TO HELL~~~~~```
BUT...but....y i dun dare to? haiyo....

i m SILLY dUN U GUYS AGREE???
LOLX!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!! if u thinks at i m happie then u r an idoit!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``````
I M NOT CRAZY!!!! i m just an idoit tat not even worth being one...or rather said tat
i m worst than an idoit!!!

i m talking to myself...
Myself is nothing....was nothing.....
in my world....i m smaller than an ant...but i hv a heart to support me! i will learn!! one day...
i HATE the word 'BUT'
since i know him...haix...

break away! i finally found the lyrics! horray!

2006-05-16T09:07:00.000-07:00

Finally here comes my lyrics!! i found it!! hooray~~```
lyrics r meaningful! to me! hehex =)

BREAKAWAY(lyrics)

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray) I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

yuan lai...haix..

2006-05-15T21:58:00.000-07:00

Yuan lai.. ni zhai....
haix...wo nan gou ni bu dong...
wo xu yao ni....nan dao ni bu dong!!!...

nibuzhidewoai....
keshiwohenaini..
aishinile..

Kill me pls...
happie wun cure..tatingury in my heart..deep in my heart...
u r rite i shoulden come to swiss cottage secondary..
but...if i dun..how would i know u guys?! such gd frenz..
although i always feels sad...but tis is my choice, what can i do?!

i will feel sad whenecer i see him...his face...just his face

haix...end...

my old pix

2006-05-14T14:58:00.001-07:00

i KnoW how to use my scaner!!!
my old pix wif them!!! WE~~~~``` nice nice pix! x)

kbox gang!

kbox gang 2!!!!

kbox gang 3!! love them!! muacks!!

mi jas nic jun~~``taken last yr=)

us again~`=DD

again!
wahaha!

taken on joan b'dea~~``hehex!! <<33 la ="DD"

again!! Hahahaha!!~~``

mii n fy hehehe...heaven=)

heys...breakaway..=))

2006-05-14T13:23:00.000-07:00

hey! breakaway~~`` my blog song!! nice huh?
hehex.. haix...
lol...

so DAMN boring~~~~~~```=((

haiyoyo...
gu ye le...i miss swimming lar....
tml there is ORAL!!! argh!! seriously exam hven over lor..
i dun care lah...exam hven over...hven over lor..
to me! =/
stupid m3 still so happie?"
haha!!!
wahahahaha....

breakaway!~~~~!~~~~! everything seems breakaway.....
sian man....
from tat day onwards everyhing breakaway cos of....=(
HAHAHA!!!!! y talk so long again sia....

arh....smile~~~~~```` i gone crazy...hey...tell me! what shall i do??

hey hey... heart fly...

?????
LOL~~~ wat m i talking here..
haha..
okok..
one thing i must said is i m caring too much m i??
WAHAHAHAAHAHA~~ i dun know...

btw tue will b fun!!!!!!!!! WEE~~~~~```
KBOX KBOX KBOX~~~~```!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHa~~~ gonna sing like hell play like hell once again man!!
LOL~~``=DDD<<<3333
u guys r0x tat day...hope it rox once again...
hahaha!!!!
xDDDD

bb gonna stop here...

Ooops!! one more thing! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! MUMMY LOVE U LOTS N LOTS N LOTS!!!
WAHAHAHAH!!!

haix...not fair...

2006-05-12T21:34:00.000-07:00

my second post 4 today...
Haix....not fair lor..
siianx............=/
ya...it's ok to feel tis way i guess...
hahaha.....
=)
um....seriously the first thing to said is...i dun know happen to me...
just now...juz a few mins ago.....i felt that exam hven over yet...
there is still exam...i was like wanting to buy assenment book...!!!! to revise..
exam is not over yet!!??!!!! issit?!! haix....
dun know...but seriously exam is over...
but i dun think so....

my mind is still telling me i m still hving exam...n others pple r not...
m i crazy?? haha...i dun know?
exam exam exam!!! i word exam is still in my mind....
how can it be???
haixx...=(((
hven over la...

rite??? RITE??
wahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i crazy!!!!!! HAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

i m a crazy gerl cos of nothing...not u anymore...but i feel so strange...
so not myself.....
wat canm i do....sobx....sobbing..makes the most difference 4 me..
hahaha!!!!

WEEE~~~``` ytd so damn fun lor!! Wahaha love u guys!!! muacksSs!!

2006-05-12T15:17:00.000-07:00

ytd!!! yes is ytd!!!
weee~~~``` when orchard with joan eleanor derry weiting small nicholas jiong han n yisin!!!~~~~``
Hahaha we hv A LOT OF FUN IN KBOX man!!!!!
LOL!!!!!
at first we wanna go watch movie...cos we dun know wat to watch...
so..we ended up going KBOX!!!!!!
wahahaha!!! i LOVE KBOX man!!!
we was like jumping singing shouting there weee~~~
so damn fun lor....love u guys so much....
muacksSss

she bangs r0x!!!!
n the zhnag xin...err....so creepy... derry said there is ghost in the mtv!!! 0_O"''''
OMG!!!!the window automanic close.....
....
HAHAHA!!!!!
jay~~~```so shuai!!! haha...dote him la...
his song r0x man...
haha...

HEY!!!! THX GUYS!!!! MUACKSSS~~~~~~~```
U GUYS SINGING RAWKS MY WORLD!!!!!
LOVE U GUYS TO DEATH , TO CORE!!!!!! xDDDDD
KBOX!!!! ROX TOO!!!!!
most importantly....
U GUYS HIGHLIGHT MY DAYS!!!! THNX!!!!
<<<3333##>

liar...

2006-05-08T17:18:00.000-07:00

i hate u!!!!
liar!!!! you TRICIA KOH KAI LING!!!!
u tis liar.... we frenz r so worry 4 u...n...n..n u did tis to us!!!
u treats us like idiots...
R u happie???
i believe r not rite?
orh...no...i shoulden't believe u anymore!!! how can u do tis to us...
i think from today onwards..i wun believe anything much from u....

ALL THOSE DOMESTIC PARTNER R ALL NOT TRUTH!!!!
ONLY... I THE IDIOT N MY FRENZ IN 2N2 BELIEVE!!!!!!!
STUPID ME!!!=___((

but...i will still treat as fren ltr.... i believe....

ok...went mac after exam wif...
joan, eleanor, jiong han, nicholas liu ,derry, justin n james~~~~``!!!
jus when wen off half way through...
my cutie junior...lol...
when there hv breakfast... and then crap crap crap like hell lar they....
i was frozen by them...0_O''''''too cold....
Lol...but they veri fun lar...
love them so much...wahahaha!!!
ok...i think i m the most crappy over here now..updating....

um...another thing is.....

um...dun worry....although i dun know when i can 4gt him....
but eleanorr thnx...sorry too....=(

FEELING BETTER!!!! TALK OUT MY THING
IN MY BLOGSPOT!!!! Weee~~~```` i LOVE BLOGGING
LOL!!! ARGH... I SO GREEDY LOVE SO MANY THINGS...SO FLIRT???
WAHAHAHA!!! I LOVE EVERYTHING!!!! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!=DDD
i love u as well.....

is getting nearer.....

2006-05-05T19:01:00.000-07:00

is getting nearer... i m more n more scared.....
confused....they left the domestic couple...
n now...nichole...
who is next??
who will b next??
i wonder....i wonder will it b me??
i wonder......if it is...i dun mind...let it be then....
i m terrified...saw my friends....getting on to it one by one....
i m seriously scared, confused....feel like crying....
y???
y lah???
i was... i felt so innocent for them....
come to me...come to me spirit....
just come to me if u nid....pls.....
they hv enough i guess....i dun understand...seriously dun understand at all....
haiix....
it's so complicated....
my life added up to more ????????
i wan know y.......

how is tis world like........
HOW???
=___(((
i shout cos of my friends...
i realized.... i love my friends....
not hate...not at all....is juz dun feel happy to lose....
same thing...as my senior...i dun think i hate her...
not at all....i love everyone of them....just tat i nv express it out....
is in my heart...deeply in my heart....n lock up....
i let it be it...

cos i believe...only my heart tell the ture....the veri truth.....of myself....
my world......
i dun mind...it is coming nearer...cos everyone is is world hv their own bad n gd....
so i believe seriously , trully believe...
elieve my heart, my soul....but...they seems to be telling i m still...
loving him

God blessed.....them pls....****=___(((

innocent them...wad happened to them??? why let them torture?? why???domestic partner is wrong??

2006-05-04T17:14:00.000-07:00

hey why???
why....y make them torture??
domestic partner??? is not their fualt...y torture them???
it's exam time ...Y?!!!! they r my friends....
T n A yyy????
Y!!!!!Y!!!!!!Y!!!!!! tis is not wat they wan i believe....
they dun wan to be tat way.....they dun wan!!!
sorry alloy....shot so loud at u....but who r u ???
All those thing.....GO AWAY LAH!!!!! STOP DISTURBING MY BROTER!!!!!!!!
N MY FRIEND....
pls...dun......if u wan come to me...i dun mind...not them...pls....
dun!!!! pls!!!!=___(
they dun deserve tis.....

hope god blessed them...pls...
hope everything will be alright....god blessed tricia n alloyious....pls....
blessed the domestic partner....pls....=(

it's gonna be pressure

2006-05-03T18:45:00.000-07:00

okok...
today...sci! argh!!! seriously it is...
VERI HARD!!!!! haix...100% percent fail...-.-
hehex =DDD
hope will pass bahx...
hope god blessed me tis yr...=/

tml...is.....eng paper 2! n chi as well...
okok gonna bulk up....
but nothing much to study!! or rather said there is nothing to study...
um....i can really pass my eng tis time round...
haiix...seriously it's gonna be perssure...
i shall not hv a betterlife bahx...
not gonna add any more oil for myself.... will grow fat man!! LOLX!!!!
okok jkjk lah...i will jia you onwards NOT! backwards!!!!>.<''''
Hahax....

i want to empty my mind....stop thinking bout...
i cant 4gt....i cant lied...i know i realized i didn't give up since the starts...
all i said was just so fake....it's my fualt i shall said, i cant lied to myself...
but i know i cant lied to u guys...everyone....
but not myself....
if u r smart, u must i hv know i still love u.....
i don't want to patch..i just want to be friend wif u, gd friend once again wif u....=(((

God doesn't blessed me from the day i born....
i shall blessed-myself then...=)
smiles~~~`` for mee? for u...=DDD

i cant concentrate bcos of u....

2006-04-28T19:56:00.000-07:00

ya....today is the first paper...
eng n chi compo...
feeling so siian....can't even concentrate!!!!=((
cos of u!!! u u u u u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiix!!!!!!!!!! feeling quite sick now.....
sick of myself...
everytime thinking about u...

i know i cant 4gt u...i m just lying to myself, my frineds, my senior....

i love u so deeply......y m i lying?? why???
haixx sick of myself....trying to help...he juz dun bother me.....
all i hope is to be ur friend!!! not only ur ass!!!!!
i m just beside u....n u did notice me!!!

i wan peace=(

2006-04-24T18:05:00.000-07:00

i wan peace=((...
why i m always sick.....y cant i look after myself properly without anyone with me???
y? Y????='(((
ok....my leg is swollen....for so 5 days!!! SICK!!!!!!!!
haix....ok i m gonna c a doctor today....is me tat make it worse...cause i actually force myself to hv ET today without telling anyone..LOL....
Cos i thought excerise will actually make my leg less pain...but...who knows -.-
i m actually making it worst...=/
nvrm....i shall c the doctor again...siianx...

Exam gonna come!!!! hope my is better tis year...i promise i must do well tis....
but not worst....
maybe i shall put everything aside during my exam period...so i can concentrate well....
can't be always thinking of him....

i wanna 4gt...but how??? so sadded....can't even 4gt a person...seriously it is not easy at all.....=(((****
i can't let go...seriously i can't...cos i m CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!=<
i m too crazy over him..........

It's the progress...it me....

2006-04-19T20:31:00.000-07:00

Ya....it's the progress.....is the progress tat i want to be...
seriously....y everythings go so wrong nowadays....
=(
my frenship.....my own prob on myself....
it's seem to be so little...but soo diff to solve?!
wat i can do is just run run run run run!!!!
but obviously not run away from it anymore!!!
cos i hv no way run...i can only run forward...tis is wat i expect from myself...
i will only push pple up to the top....helping pple...is my first job...
secondly....i wan to hv confidence...i must build my confidence...
all else i cant make it....she is very right...
i hv not been caring....so...from now i will try to gain back everything she wants from me...
seriously....i never blame her b4....=)
i understand the process i m gonna go through for my future....
it's for my own gd....i know no one is selfish...i believe now....

i believe watever***
cos of her....cos of him...i will guai guai....
i m doing tis is not only for u guys....but oso myself....

i believe.....i believe in myself most now.....=_)

i m not gonna run away anymore....

argh...flu again...=((( at least i can talk...

2006-04-15T17:57:00.000-07:00

um....band today...
so tired...so siianz..
-.-
haix! MISS FLUTE IN BAND!!!!!
if we cant find it....everyone is gonna pay for it....
$36!!!! =/
hope we can find the lost flute... n the person tat stolen it!!!!!!
my life is more n more tired....frustrated....
he scolded by mr chew today....i think he deseversed it....
its truth he nid to be scolded!!!! although i know it wun go through his brain....
he is juz so stubborn!!!!
haiix....i hv nothing to said but juz to accept it...
but...at the same time...my heart break....seriously...even he deseversed....
i cant.... i still cant...=(

ok...my flu is better....
my voice actually changed!!
it hv been 6 months.....
i like him tat long.... minus away....3 months...
3 months.....3 months!!! n i still cant let go....
haixx.....feeling quite sad.....i need more time i guess....
but i know there is sumone waiting for me.... waiting 4 my answer for ard 9 months...
n i cant...give him...cos i dun like him....juz dun hv the feeling....=/
n i wun start a new wan....when i hven forget the one i m hving now...
btw...i dun feel like hving any now.....juz too sick, too regret....too scared....

CCA stand down... i dun know whether i shld b happie a not...

i want to clam down 4 tis time of period....throw away everything in my mind....
the best is.....i can 4get him...n juz b frenz once again.....=)
aaron ong.....beat me down....my world down.....he is the first n last wan.....

=_(
regret, begging 4 forgivness.....my world fell down....is myself...my world....
my world...blogspot......is where i trully belong.....

ya....i m not giving up said cheese!

2006-04-12T14:53:00.000-07:00

said cheese!!!

ok i m not giving up ok?!
Yes....band pract ytd... is me feeling not well again...
then she thought i diao her -.-lll
i was so shock!!!
Nvrm....it's ok...
is over already.... hope i can born well with her once again...
like those day we hv been...=)

my flu is from bad to worst....
But i m still going swimming lesson tml...yeah!!
swimming is fun!!!
Hooray!!
there is band on sat!!! Ok!!! I gonna go no matter i m sick or not...
I m going for band!! cos CCA gonna stand down....so sad...=((
Haiix.....cant really hang out with my CCA friends...

Exam coming in 2 weeks!!! everybody JIA YOU!!! do ur best!!!

hehehe...gtg le... playing pokemon!!! haha i so childish....
Fire Red!!!=p

bye

ya my last post 4 today....

2006-04-10T16:02:00.000-07:00

yes... my time is up...we ended up not friends....is him...
I LOST a friend....cos i know i didnt do it.... AARON
Haix...no point feeling sad i know....
tis is a promise.... a promise means a promise....
haix...=(((
Nvrm...tml is another start of my day...no senior for 3rd stand....3rd trombone....
I believe i can do it... i dun wanna disappiont my sect anymore...
xjun hv pass out i believe she dun wan anything to happened...all i can do is...to try my best....
Jia you Yiying!!! U can do it!!!
XJUN SAKI I MISS U GUYS!!!!N other sec 4s senior!!!

so sad....=__(((
i can do it!!..i must be strong!! learn to b...
=))
bye....

picx

2006-04-10T15:48:00.000-07:00

um....=x

them....edited by m3=)

haix sad...senior pass out=((

2006-04-10T14:36:00.000-07:00

mii n jun...
i will miss her...=(
saki as well!

ytd is SWISS SENERADE!!!! Is quite succeeful i guess...=)
i muz Jia you!!!!!!!!!

they r great.....

<<33>wo bu shi ying xiong...ying wei wo dong de ji mo....=))

i muz jia you f0r the rest of the days i m going through wif my section...
=DDD
miss my seniors, <333 my seniors lots!!!! x___)

ya my last post 4 today....

2006-04-10T00:54:00.000-07:00

alin!!! apirl fool!! i m a fo0l!!!

2006-04-01T22:26:00.000-08:00

alin!!!
her song r0x man!!! wow!!!
omg!!! adores so much!!! muacksSs!!!
lol...>.<
shi lian wan siu!!! wowo~~` i agree!!!
......=/
apirl fool!! today!! cant gt fool anyone...=(
Not fun wan....lol...jk jk la...=))
feel so angry but happy today!!!
UGRH!!!! wat's his , whenever i step into the Qms room! he always argue wif me!! wats his PROBLEM??!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRRITATED!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE IT LOH!!!!!!!! =X
i love, i hate!!!! wat's my problem too!!!
OMG!!! I m seriously CRAZY!!! PISS OFF MAN!!!!
Who???
who???can tell me tat sentence again i beg 4 so long??
who???

the sentence: Not matter wad i will always be there 4 you....as my brother......='(

i hate those days arguing wif u***='(, believe no one feels gd bout it...
no matter wat u argue back to me only...not others...its obvious....dun tell me is not anymore i dun listen...
=(( believe me i will go crazy cos of u one day..if tis continue...=((

x-country...

2006-03-31T16:05:00.000-08:00

Today x-country!!!
wah! damn sian loh...
haix...=((
tired...
hey no position 4 me tis year...=)
remember last year i gt 93 position...
lol...

hahax...
walk all the way in the forest...
quite tired when i was walking..
i m hving *cough*
feeling xing gu....when i hv a cough ...haiix...today is a tiring day...
my medicine is not there today....if so down...=(
dun know wat happen to him...
maybe i shall not care 4 him anymore...but cant...=((

Endless speech*** is my fault i guess....s0rry to argue back ytd...=(

i didnt mean to said much....haiix....wat 4 saying so much...u wun understand rite?

Speechless***is him***aaron=_(

all about love***
is suck...

tml...there is band!!!! Hope everything go smoothly...=)

HAPPY R0X!!!!=)))

2006-03-27T19:53:00.000-08:00

HEY!!! HEY!!! LOL!!!!
Today...
tied up my hair 2 sch!!!
most of them said it is weird -.-lll
Nvrm, i will let them get used to it=)
haha!!!
today is my HAPPY day!!! =DDD
HAPPY SIMPLY R0X!!!
x)))
Glad tat i dun think much now=))
today's lesson...
ee...sucks!!!keep going com lab....Go com lab 3 twice n com 1 once ,then dun gt to use the com=((
Hahaha!!! nvrm...as long as i can use it when i reach home!!!
=DDD
=P
Nth spoil my mood 4 now...
there is BAND tml!!!
wee~~~``i can gt to practice!!!=)))
HAPPY R0X!!!!weee~~~~```
hahaha!!!agree??! =DDD

I strongly do agree!!! hahaaha!!!

haiix...so siianx...

2006-03-26T00:13:00.000-08:00

today.....
ya...my scolding day....my boring day....my HAPPY day!!!!
woohoo!!
Lolx....
went 4 NCC afirmation, to perform!!!
damn sleepy today...haha..
yes!!! happy to know i try to PUSH!!!!!!!!!
but i wan to make it more obvious!!! my sound must b nice!!!
i left ard 2 weeks time??
jia you le....n PUSH!!! tats all i can said to myself...=))
I m feeling great today!!! hahax...almost crapping 4 the whole day..
realised tat crapping is FUN!!!! but tiring too, cos i will laugh until alot...then in the end i will feel tired-.-lll LOL!!!
went to hv dinner wif eleanor, dawen, derry,joan,jocelyn, madeline,amethyst,jiong hong,jiong han, chning kit, nicholas(sec 1) n julia!!! at westmall mac...
haha...crap there while eating...
then we play GAMES!!!
jiong han n Nicholas kanna!!! Haha!! poor sec 1 x)
jiong han was punish to kiss sumone!!! lol!! he kissed NIcholas!!!! hahaa!! so cute my juniors!!!
Nicholas was punish to sing!!! LOUD LOUD!!! Omg!!! nicholas sang well leh...
then one more is make a 'diao' pple face!!! haha!! so cute!!!
<<333 them lots!!! hahaa x))

I love the feeling of being crazy!!!! N fun!!! it simply r0x!!!
N...tats my way to b happy!!!=)))

bye gtg le..
yy ngo=))yes!!! i m back!!!

-self intro-
i m yy, 14 , trombist, loves base, my sect, qm sect, love all my frenz n senior...
they r0x mii life...
impt*** i still to hv him back as my frenz!! jia you!!! gan ba teh!!!=)))

end***
Oops!! its 12 plus am!!! everything is back to tml...
juz like the fairytale...'Cineralla'='(
happiness wun last long...=))
Nvm..i still enjoy myself=D...

yes...my water shall not pour out anymore...sorry...

2006-03-23T21:33:00.000-08:00

Hey....my cup of water shall not pour out anymore...
um....i dun wan to lose...i dun wan!! i can do it...juz tat i dun wan to do it...
i do it in purpose...
i will onli win when i put in effort...
i dun wan to lose any friend liao...i can do it!!!!
Ya!! i realised sumthing....i nv lost my spirit...i juz lose myself..
i can find my way out if i seek 4 it ....n i believe i will tis once last time...
i know i m stress now...but i willl not be stress when i do all the things tat my senior wan...all i wan is to win...NOT LOSE!!!!!!!!!!
Tats the way!!! i remember....thanx...4 him***
although u r not my friend now....but u will b one after 3 weeks...
tis were the amount of time i m giving myself...
push push push push push!!!! i will do it...No but no why...
only a YES n NO i m gonna said now!!!!!!!!!
walk off is yy ngo**** thnx=)))
i m BACK!!! tml...
No tears, no stress but juz excitement n fun!!!!
hahaha!!!!wee~~~``LOL!!!

i dun wan i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-18T20:13:00.000-08:00

HEY!!!!i DUN WAN DUN WAN!!!!!!!!!!
HOPE I M RIGHT!! I DIDN'T HEARD ANYTHING!!!
Ok....go mac after band today...
hv a short meeting wif weiting,
the meeting is bout the senrenade...n choosing chief qm????
4 next next yr??? nvrm...i dun know n dun wan to know...=/
cos she will bu shuang wan=/
haiix...nvrm..i dun care anymore....
i seem....._________________everyday...=(((
okok..i m juz siianz diao...
-.-lll
ya...band today is.... juz 'SCARELY'..=((((
Nvrm...
i hv fear to go band pract now....but....how can i do????
i must face it ba....juz face my fear....
i gt the most scoldings from senior...nowadays....
is ok with me la....
ya....i wun blame....i will only care...
i let them scold all they like, all they wan.....i let them those tat dun like me backstab me....
i dun mind n dun wanna care anymore n ever....=/

i hv so many prob...my sect..or rather said everyone feel tat im wrong....
senior tat come back felt so too..
so wat???? they dun understand still n i dun think they wan to understand me ba....=/

Is end of me...i stuck deep deep deep deep in the forest....
i m alone****

ya...is today....not my day...

2006-03-15T20:11:00.000-08:00

ya...
today is not my day...=/
feel soo damn tired today...
No reply again...feel damn sadded...=_((
sobz....
someone said tat i m fake...nvrm...
i dun mind...

Go to sch today to do Qms stuff...=
haix...so siianzZz...
but joan so CUTE!!!!
she so crappy=x
at least make me feel not so siianz...=))
<33x))
okok...um...not many of the Qms came..
only nazri, aaron,joan,m3, adil n xue er...
ok...i dun talk much today...haiix...
i m still lost..even deeper in the forest..=__((
Hahahaha SO WAD IF I M LOST!!!!
I believe i wil find my way!!!!!! rite!!!!!! LOL!!!! x__))))))))
Hohohoho~~~~~~~~``````

siianzzzsatiion..

2006-03-13T16:02:00.000-08:00

haiix..
today so siianz....
stay @ home...nothing to do...
i juz copy the qns from my maths text book...hven even started my hw...=((
Nvrm..i shall...do it ltr...or wed wif my frnez!! LOL!!!
Ya...holidays...is siianz...but y pple stil wan holiday when they said hoildays is siianz??
hahahahaha..lol..
Crappy me...
btw...dun realli know how to do my hw leh...
haiix..
nvm...

nothing to add on...end my post here ba...tml will be another tiring day...
hahahax=))
there is band tml!!!!
bye le

yes...my days...

2006-03-11T22:44:00.000-08:00

[090306]thursday
lesson was sian man...
haiix...No maths, no patrick...lol...he veri funny...nvrm...i juz ifeel tat i will fail me maths if him continue teach me..haha..
I still dun understand why m i in band 1 4 maths lesson..
all my result 4 maths was juz border linee...-.-''''
nvrm...i juz nid to buck up...i guess=))
ya...history lesson was juz the same...i DIDN'T pay attention in class always..
poor mr seng...haiix..-.-lll
i juz copy blindly all the notes on the white board... lol...
realised i m wasting my time doing tat....
nvrm..i shall read throught it then...=))

gt my Progess report today!!!!
ya...SAME SAME Thingy AGAIN!!!
MY history result suck to my limit..15/100
haiix..
i fail 2 subjects..his n sci..=((
then the rest..is juz no better...
only my eng n lit is my higest score 65/100
so shock...-.=
cant imagine my eng is actually better than my chinese..lol...
i chinese only 50 plus..border line!!!
last yr is 80 plus de!!! wat happen to me!!!
haiix..it's ok is him i know ...but i wun let tis kind if thing to happen again...

[100306]friday
today there is band...
jas take me n yipping sectional...
my sounds sucks..trying change it but didint manage to do it..but i must still try..believe i can do it..
althought i hv no confidence... but i must learn to hv some...

after buy band go buy somebody's b'dea pesent...=))
love to buy present 4 pple..
and especially..make the b'dea card urself 4 the person is fun!!
Thanx!! eleanor!!! pei me to buy the persent!!! thanx lots!! muackzz!!! l<<333>
lol... then went home after tat...reach home ard 8 plus...

[110306]saturday
today...band...
siian...-.-dun feel like saying anything much today...i m tired..feel 4 2 hours when i reach home immediately...wake up by my mummy at 6 plus ba..
damn tired..feel like sleeping the whole day long long...4eva dun wake up..
if i dun wake,
i wun hv to fan..
i can slack like hell,
i avoid everyhting...
life is juz sleeping to me...which i dun feel like doing it....now...
i hv to wake up...
xj gonna past out in 1 month...
i hv to work hard...i dun care whether there is pressure now a not,,,
the most is i wan to do is to let xj to be happie..i wan her to smile~`..tats all...=)))

sorry...my ususal words.....sorry....

yeah!! i finally cut my hair!!

2006-03-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

HEY!Guess wat?!
I FINALLY cut my hair...
HOHO~~~``` look much more neater but not shorter -.-'''
nvm...as long as i hv cut my hair, can liao...hven cut 4 almost 4 months le!!!
then spent $12 to hv a haircut today...don't really hv much diff leh...-.-lll
SWEAT!!!!!
okok i m crapping....
hey i m trying hard to SMILE~!!!! hoho...
CHEERIOUS!!! YY!!!

i m thinking postive...cos i know tat if i dun...i will feel veri damn sad...
i know if i think tis way...many will go on well... i believe tat...i can do it!!!
i want to help, i wish to help, so i m doing tis now to help myself n THEM!!!
Ya...as wat XJ said we r a sect....we r together...why not do things better by letting each other...
understand their problems...maybe their's r more worst than ur own....
So i hv think veri long...i decided...i dun wan to be attiude anymore...i an to know pple better....
juz like wat XJ hv told me.... i will learnt to understand them...i will...
we r a sect... i wun EVER GIVE UP!!!anymore...
i wan to prove it... i wan...
I wan to said s0rry....=(((
s0rry....=)

to her`

ya...jun i know is not ur fualt sorry...

2006-03-05T12:54:00.000-08:00

ya...everything is mii...cos of mii...
HAPPIE?!
ya...i believe they r...
i know u nid someone support...u hv difficulties between...
so i think maybe i shld step down....
mayb i m the one tat dun even belong here from the start..
i understand i shlden like tat...
if i leave maybe everybody will happie=))
everything will goes on rite...
I shall go then...
SERIOUSLY.....ts dun belong to me....n this is not where i belong....
i know she hate mii....i cant stop anymore.....

Sorry everyone...is time 4 me to go******

omg!!! my stomach is not feeling well 4 the whole day!!!

2006-03-02T14:53:00.000-08:00

OMG!!!
my stomach is not feeling well today....
rUn to the toliet ard...7 times!!!!
OMG!!!!
t0O JIA LET liao....

Y m i always not feeling nowadays...=(((
HaIIX!!!!!

Not...sure going band tml anot leh...
the condition of my body is weak.....

Nvm..i shall go to sch still then...i gt alot things to do to catch up....
cAn't SLACK le....
LOL!!!!!

Okok i m so-called chicken move la....
L-A-M-E x))))
Gonna FLOOD my Blog le.....
flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood
flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood
flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood flood********

buaiixx

goodies goodies goodies clover leaf.....

2006-03-01T22:27:00.000-08:00

G0OdiEs G0OdiEs G0Odies G0Odies~~~~~~````
Cl0vEr leAf cL0veR LeAF!!!!
those r0x...=))))
SMILE~~~````YY NID 2 B BACk!!!!!!

I gT mY cL0vEr kEyChiN wiF mii...i gt All mY G0Odies!!!!

YaY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sICkY sUCkY REsSt......

feEL HOT tOdaY!!!!
WOOHOO!!!
cos i m siick today....=(lol....
s0Rry...i tried my best...=_(

tR0Mb0Ne**** is difficult...

cloVer leaf is helping mii,....supporting mii life....
i ReGeRted....can u all 4give mii...i realli nid u all....
i m disappointed...4 myself...

Y nowadays pple is hving fever together??!!! LOL!!!!

I m fine.......s0rry guys......=__((
reAlli sorry........
NO offence......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
=((

SorRy...mY cl0verLeAf...is 4 u guys....=)

Seriously...i hv nothing to said anymore...

2006-02-28T22:35:00.000-08:00

Ya....go visit derry's blog today??!
realised he did almost the same thing as eleanor..LOL!!!!!!!!
Hahahahahahahhahaahahaahaahahahah
ahahahhahahahaha..............
Hahaahahahaahaahhaahahahaahahahah
=.=lll
so i said seriously...
i m ODD***
LOL!!!
S0rry...eleanorr...no offence....
n derry.....

btw seriously...i m not saying u guys...is others.......x(

i know i sucks!!! hey if u feel like slapping me slap la...go ahead man!!!!!!!
my face will b waiting 4 u all.....

Ya...u guys do hv fun!!!
LOL!!

Um...
I m irritated , i m stress, i m frustrated....i hate sectionals time...i lost my freedom...
i lost everything...
im craZy...
No one actually wan to bother me...
cos i sucks!!!!!!!
LOL!!!
I m laughing!! OMG! i still can laugh!!!

i hv nothing to said anymore...but juz sleeping in my coffin

pls....=____(
I m going crazy....seriously... i m.....
i m pissed off...
its obvious....=___((

hey come on man....i feel like singing cyndi wang 's song( wo hui hao hao de) lol...
or i shall i change it to...(wo bu hui hao hao de)

siianz...tml there is rollar blade....
my injury hven recover..how to roll...
haiix...siian...

life is sucky!!! i wonder y m i like tat....
where is yiiying??!!!
i realli dun know......

pls dun look @ mii*** i gt fear****

today...

2006-02-27T20:51:00.000-08:00

today...
perform..4 assembly...
go alloy's house again...
haiix...4 get to bring my PE shirt...cant manage to swim with them...sadded...=((
Nvrm...

quite fun lah...
N today's assembly was so-called so siian to me...cos i hv no feelings anymore...no feeling at all le...
but i know who i still love***
it's ok if no one cares mii...pple dun nid to bothers mii much wad...
=)))

i wan to ask myself a Qns...
a same old stupiid thing again...Am i HAPPIE??
Can anybody tell mii the ans?
i m stress...i m not...yiying..
the yiying tat i m...is...always helping my mummy to do housework, to do wadever she wants mii to do...
but now..who im??
i realli dun know...
No ones is telling me an answer...
i m obviously...lying to myself again..n always..lying...
my back hurts...nowadays...seriously...hurt..no one actually bother mii...
wo zhai ren zhu wo de shan...no ones knows i m...
pls...i m enough of tat...i want sumone to cares...juz...sumone...='((
i dun wan to go 4 enrichment tis wed...cos my injury is cause by the rollar blade!!!
from...last wed till now...no improvement?! I gt difficulties doing ET!!!
zhen de hen xing ku....ke shi shui hui ming bai??

wo ren zhu lei shui...wang qian qu....mei ren lee wo...mei ren..ke lian wo....=__((
i realised i hate band...but becos of her*** i know i can do it!!!i believe i can!!!
=((((

ya....seriously...yy is dead.... bye le...

my funeral is held....is over...no one knows...except me...i m dead without peace ,without happiness...='(((

...

2006-02-27T20:34:00.000-08:00

ya mii...looking sad...=x
ya...mii dead....it's obvious....=__)
mii n sin=)) love xiao sin lots

mii n nicholas=))

tis pic r0x??x)

my friends....my soul...my spirit...i almost lost everything...n everyone...i m unless...he is correct...=((

u guys...how u guys do tat to mii

2006-02-26T15:25:00.000-08:00

u guys..
u guys r0x..
i m sorry...

went out ytd after band to celebrate eleanorr birthday...with...
nic, derry, aaron,zheng shu,eleanorr(of cos),dawen,jocelyn,joan,julia,weiting n xueer...
i m left OUT! x)))
i m SO...HAPPIE ytd..lol...=DDD
yes..truthfully i m 'happie'...
they hv fun...but i didnt.
No offence by saying tis...
sorry to said tis to...

i realli didnt enjoy my day ytd...so wad...??...the most important is everyone does..i dun...
its ok..cos is mii onli...no offence...
They r FAKE***....
i m quiet...sumhow is c0s of him...
but no one realised it...
nvm...i dun wan to blame anyone or even offence anyone..
cos...i rather i m the only one tat's sad..than everyone...no offence realli NO OFFENCE!!!
they dun know i nid them...i nid him...they DUN KNOW!!!!!!!! I HATE IT MAN!!!!!

i m sad..
i m quiet..
i m fake...
i m the odd one..
i m normal...
the most important is i m not Yiying anymore..=___((

sorry....

I didnt went there with u guys ytd...i m walking towards the sea ytd...no one bothers to cares bout mii....
they juz wan mii to save them...not mii...
i dun want to lie to myself again...tat feeling SUCKS HELL!!!****

dun said i m bad hearted...is u guys tat force me to do tat....=/

arh...

2006-02-19T18:50:00.000-08:00

HEY!!! Someone is so-called IRRITATING mii!!!!!>.<'''''

uselesS m3...i hatee

2006-02-18T15:49:00.000-08:00

I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!! Can U guys believe tat i hate him?!!!
omg!! =O

YY NGO IS DIE TODAY...
her spirit is die today..

my spirit is die....
i dun know how to play tr0mb0ne..
i dun know...wad i m doing...how i feel...
i dun know who 's my friend?!!
they r making me to0 confused...=((

I m confused..

my spirit die....today...tats why i m not working well....um..is not well at all....=__(((***