Changes everywhere...what can i do??

i want to die..
i cant survive longer...
my life is limited.. and now it's my limit...
u guys break ur promise...
promise to celebrate my bdea...
promise to do watever things...all nv do, then wat for saying it to me ...

i done so much..i tried so hard to fill u guys life...i just cant let u all feel happy...i am useless indeed...i am not suitable to be in this band...
not suitable to be a part of swisswinds...
i am neither siutable to be a part of u guys as a friend...
i cant let down my feelings...
i cant do my part as a frined...
i cant be fufill to my parent as their daugther... i am really a failure...
all i can to do is to hate u all....

no ones bothers....i can see, u guys are tired of me...
i am too greedy...too selfish...
i dun know why i still care so much about u....
i dun know how i start to love u so deeply last time and now still...
this kind of lost feeling..is what i nv had before in my life...
certainly, i dun know why i am born..
i dun know what's the point of living without you, without someone listening to me anymore....

god! give me an axe! i want to kill myself....;(

no one will ever see this post....again...