Changes everywhere...what can i do??

todea gt cross country ,
sooo tired after running ...
my position is 93, but i keep telling my frenz that it was 98 ...
dunnoe my brain siao liao,or wat leh...
i think was too tired nowadeas
keep on saiding the wrong thing =(
i wan to go back to deas of b4...
but no diff leh, the same i think =/
as there were too many bad memorise when i was young ...
to know more,flash back to 23 june 05=/
but i didn't said much of it...
deas 4 me was like hell, seeing ppl's face ,inlcuding my family...
watever leh, see sooo manytimes liao , i am sick of it lor
but nvm, things had already happen ,i can't change it anymore
this is MY LIFE !!!
when can it stop???
=(
tmr there is rh 4 the next performance,
dun feel like going=/, but muz go
muz b serious from now n perpared 4 more challenges
muz jia you, =__( feeling worse
juz being scold n nag by my mum, said wat : 'play more com, u will b staying back 4 sec 1 ,one more yr...'.
SHE SAIDING THIS TO ME LEH, feeling sooo stress liao ,saiding this summore, juz like putting oil on the fire in my heart lor...
i juz dun wan to tell them wat i am thinking...
they will not understand n will nag n nag ,untill i am crazy!!!
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sick of my life!!!