Changes everywhere...what can i do??

i haven rest at all 4 the whole week!!!
todea go ncc hq ...
i m regret tat i have went there ,
is like things bcoming worst lor=(
my pants like ,cannot put blet onto it...
haz
keep asking myself ,y m i so blurr, y m i so stupid,y can't i do things properly,y y y ?!
I HATE MYSELF , I HATE MYSELF , I HATE MYSELF, I JUZ CAN'T STOP HATING MYSELF!!!
i hate myself ,more than the pple i hate!!!
i juz dunn like myself to b like this...=(
juz like this ...really=/

problem is all created by myself all the time...
i juz can't stop blame myself=(
really really can't

still hunting 4 time ...hunting veri hardly...
juz need to find sum to sleep
i need deas of sleeping time, n tat is enough 4 me!!!
i really muz b strong,veri veri strong
=___(
but i will still help my frenz n seniors anytime they need...=)
pls dun 4get to find me!!! frenz n seniors=)
anyway my seniors is my frenz too=)
i will help u all no matter how tired i m ...=)